Just checking in so you don’t worry, but I’m not sure I have so much to say. Actually, I think the opposite is closer to the truth, but I don’t trust I’ll find the right words just yet. For now, a few random notes:
* I’ve gotten lots accomplished in the last day or so, not all of it at work or in the garden. I feel kind of good about that.
* The Olympics are winding down and due to work schedule, I’ll only catch the late night stuff now ’til the end. Ah, well, only two years ’til the 2010 Winter Games in Vancouver.
* 2010. That sounds a little weird, huh? Where are those flying cars and rocket jet packs, anyway? I’d happily settle for a few more windfarms.
* It turns out that two weeks of somewhat immersive coverage of the Olympic Games, enhanced by substantial sleep deficit was just the right combination for me to have committed to memory the entire NBC Fall Schedule of programming. Well, at least I’ve made note of when HEROES is starting up again. I really like that show.
* Thirty-five days since my last filthy cigarette. I know I’ve probably made it sound easy this time around. Nobody’s more surprised than me. I attribute this both to my blasted optimism, which annoys even me sometimes, but also to no small sense of determination. I don’t want to be a smoker anymore. (All of your encouragement and cheerleading hasn’t hurt, either…so thanks for that.)
* Now that it’s been a while since I took the smoke, I am noticing some improvements in me. I’m breathing easier, and I find that singing’s a little easier, too. Well, the act is. I’m not feeling lately like I have a lot to sing about…but that’s also possibly the reason I’ve been doing so much of it.
* Unexpected Carnage! A moldy and long-forlorn mousetrap in the cabinet beneath the sink here in the computer room sent a good-sized mouse off to his reward just moments ago. (We bow our heads and wish him well.) I’m blogging about it now, but it will be less creepy to address the larger issue of actually removing the body by morning light.
* As always, I find the garden awfully good for what ails me. Lately, there is almost always an undersong of crickets, but especially in the evening. There’s quite a buzz at noontime as pollinators of all shapes and sizes ply their way from one flower to the next.
The goldfinches have been visiting the sunflowers regularly. I saw the hummingbird again this morning. And the bunnies are never far away, it seems.
Each day there are new colors, or fresh combinations of different flowers grown together. As I explore, I slow down and breathe a little easier, as a piece of my stress burns away in the golden sunshine. I can think of no better things than these tiny wonders and it’s nearly impossible to be glum in their company.
“And that evening, while he was playing, a brown leaf, the first leaf of the fall, blew into the station and landed right next to the cricket cage. Now this leaf had come from New Jersey. A playful gust of wind danced it over the Hudson River, and up Forty-second Street, and whisked it down the subway entrance.“
“Chester was in the middle of a song when the leaf came down. It was such a shock to see this little reminder of all that was happening in the country that for a moment he couldn’t continue. But then he realized where he was and forced himself to go on.“